I throw on Silverchair's Neon Ballroom and suddenly I'm a teenager again. I lay on the floor, just listening and singing and get through another day.
Even then, all I really wanted in life was to raise kids and write novels. I struggled through years of chaos and fear and violence to get where I'm at now.
In the blink of eye, I was in a healthy relationship and the baby I'd waited so long for was on her way. Somehow, this my life now. I still have a lot of trauma to work through. I'm still trying to get rid of people I cut out of my life. I hope someday I can finally leave the past where it belongs and just enjoy my new, amazing life in peace.
